May 3 2021.Today I turned 40. Lockdown. 

my heart is bubbling with thanksgiving to my saviour who has carried me ever so faithfully...Content and Peaceful..This is where I want to be in my 40..not only physically but mentally..And God has brought me there..To a place of complete trust and surrender...

Its a miracle that I am here, you see,

Coz the doctors said no guarantee for the baby!

From The moment I was born,

Jesus carried me on His shoulders;

I wouldn't have seen the morn,

If not for my pattima's prayerful tears;

Jesus never let me down,

Or made me walk on my own.

Always there by my side as a shadow,

Constant presence as I grew.

I remember God with my first memory,

With so much love and mercy, he has written my story!

At a very young age, my heart bubbled,

With joy unspeakable whenever I hear God's song;

Surely my Joy and peace doubled ,

When God put His seal on me, to Him belong;

He taught me to delight in my sweet saviour ,

And He gave all my heart's desire !

Oh! If not for my good shepherd, 

If not for His mercy and saving grace;

If not for His loving protective hand, 

I would have been Long forgotten in a finished race !

Truly His grace and mercy overwhelmed me,

His faithful and matchless love never let me go..

There were challenging times in my life ,

Where I have pleaded before His throne;

For my loved ones, begging for His mercy,

And everytime the light from His face has brightly shone!

With so much zeal, God has fought my battles,

Strengthed me by His promises, led me into victory !!!

How can I Thank you enough, my father!!

What can I give you, all is yours!

I surrender myself completely to thee,

To tell everyone of this wondrous love!

You hold my future in your hands,

So I will happily and eagerly walk with thee;

Much more wonderful things to see,

For great is your faithfulness.!!!

Written in 2004.

The Lord is very good to those who love Him...I have a testimony to share with you..We went to universal,orlando this saturday and we had great fun...Our final ride in the list was the "Revenge of Mummy"...so we went to that ride and we kept our digital camera in one of the lockers outside the ride and went for the ride...the ride was very fast and furious...thank goodness it was a short ride...my cap was about to fly away..it was that fast...then we came and looked in our locker which was empty now... we got too tensed and we reported to the lost and found section in vain...Ravi said it is impossible to get the camera again because the park was crowded as it was a long weekend...But I was praying in my heart,
"Lord..Everything happens for good for those who love you...And nobody can steal from your daughter...I know you have something good in this...Thankyou for that goodness which follows this...and thankyou that we are getting the camera back"...I was continually praying and While in the car on our way home...God told me..
"Daughter,if you have real faith in me ..then tell ravi that you will pray and get it back"...I hesitated a moment but rebuked myself coz Jesus is the mighty and amazing God...so I told him,
"I will pray and get that camera back...don't worry"...
He simply nodded his head with a smile...but I felt great for making a faith statement...and I was very sure God will honour it...Sunday God made me little wise to call the lost and found section ...but there was nobody there so I left a message....and I was continually praying for God to honour my faith....monday morning i was still in bed... suddenly i remembered about the camera and started to pray again...I was actually thinking what should i say..how i would define my camera.In my faith,I dreamt the whole conversation....just then...this is amazing...just then I got
a call...i ran to pick it up....And I was sure glad to hear the man speaking,"I am calling from universal lost and found section".....My heart leaped with joy and i was literally jumping..saying...thanku Jesus..thanku Jesus.....And I was telling him exactly what i dreamt of what i should say...I told him to see the photos and described them....He said,"Yes mam,I have your camera here"...Isn't God wonderful....He said he will mail it and we will get it in 7 days...Now I know what is that goodness God has hid in this...It sure has increased my faith and Ravi's faith in God...It has taught that with a childlike faith you can get what u want...It has made us realise the nearness of God to us...Most of all,I feel I have come more closer to God...God has proved it again...that He is an awesome God....
And yes it is..Everything Happens for Good for those who love Him.....!!!

How much more

Nobody can love us like our Dad Jesus....He has loved us to the extent of giving His life for us...Sometimes when sin gets hold of me,I think that God surely hates me right now....but no,he answered me with this verse,I took you from the ends of the earth, from its farthest corners I called you. I said, 'You are my servant'; I have chosen you and have not rejected you.Isaiah 41:9.And in some temptation,when I think that I am so very alone,he answered me with this verse,Don't be afraid, for I am with you. Do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you. I will help you. I will uphold you with my victorious right hand.isaiah 41:10..And when I came to US,I was scared to go far away from home and God told me,Deut 31:8 - Do not be afraid or discouraged, for the LORD is the one who goes before you. He will be with you; he will neither fail you nor forsake you."When I am sick,he heals me...When I am tired my daddy gives me strength...He hides me in the shelter of his tabernacle...Surely there is none like my precious Lord!!!

How much more could u love me God!

How much more..

Wherever I go,

You are there before!

How much more could u forgive me God!

How much more..

Whenever I fall,

You lift me up for sure!

How much more could u bear me God!

How much more..

Whenever I am impatient and crying,

You hold me close!

How much more could u understand me God!

How much more..

When the world leaves me behind,

With me you choose to stand!

How much more could u uphold me God!

How much more..

When I say I can't go any further,

You lift me up and take me through!

How much more could u plan for me God!

How much more..

When I don't see anything ahead,

My path is always clear before you!

How much more then I should love you God?

How much more..

I don't know how to live without you God,

I don't have a clue!

So I thank thee God,

For never giving up on me,

You chose to be my father,

To lead me and guide me through,

Only you can do what you are doing God!

Only you can do...

So patient with an impatient me,

I will learn to trust you!

My Baby Testimony

Praise the Lord.I am here to tell you How true and faithful God is.How awesome He is.God has been my dad literally all my life..My wordly father passed away a few years ago..God was leading us wonderfully b4 that but From that moment on...He took our family into His hands in a very special way and has lead us mightily.I can go on talking about God's faithfulness towards us.I would like to say one thing in particular now.When we started planning for a baby..God said that He is wonderful in counsel and mighty in deeds...God has always been in control..So I know He is in complete control in this too.In the starting of 2006,I got a promise verse.

Isaiah 40:31
but they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength;
they shall mount up with wings like eagles;
they shall run and not be weary;
they shall walk and not faint.

So I knew that God is asking me to wait .But with every passing month,I grew more weary.God upheld me with His righteous right hand and gave me promises...lots and lots of promises and made me go on...

One of the few promises were,

For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare [1] and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.Jeremiah 29:11

For still the vision awaits its appointed time;
it hastens to the end—it will not lie.
If it seems slow, wait for it;
it will surely come; it will not delay. Habbakuk 2:3

"Fear not, O land;
be glad and rejoice,
for the Lord has done great things!
Joel 2:21

And many more promises like these...I held on to these promises.

One day...I asked the Lord...God how good it will be if i can talk to you thru phone?..So i can ask you whats going on...

I had a dream that night.

My cell phone rang and the display read "God"..

My family said, come on pick it up pick it up...

I picked up the phone and I could hear the sound of space...I said hello

And I heard the most majestic and a loving...beautiful voice I've ever heard in my life

God said...

"varthayinal mathiram alla..seyalinalum unnaku seiven"

which means I will do to you what I have promised..

After that I became very confident in the Lord..God was teaching me how to trust in Him...How to wait in Him and How to be patient..

In the women's bible study..we were in the colossians when I had this dream...

So when we learnt how soverign God is...

According to the verse,

col 16 For by [6] him all things were created, in heaven and on earth, visible and invisible, whether thrones or dominions or rulers or authorities—all things were created through him and for him

So I was meditating on His sovereignty...He who created all things has got plans for me...He who calls the stars by name has plans for me....and so on..

But when dec 2006 came...I said,God this is the month dec 2006...this year you are fulfilling all your promises...and I was thinking...Its said in the bible..that Jesus does not know when He is coming...coz if he does he wud tell us all out of pity...So I was asking God..God,but you know when ur promises are going to fulfilled..let me know plz...that same evening my aunt from India called me...

She said...pappu(thats how they call me at home) its not december 2006...I was shocked...How in the world does she know what I am asking God?

She said that Jesus came in her dream and said...I'm going to bless her in this year...but not dec 2006...before this academic year which is March 31 2006...

I got this message just a few days b4 our christmas function...and on the day of the function...my promise verse was...

Thevan arulina solimudiyatha ivukkaka thothiram...Praise God for His wonderful gift..2 Cor 9:15

Actually I stopped praying after that and started praising and thanking him..Coz I believed God has already answered my prayers...

I told all my friends..They were surprised how can somebody know that before 3 months...I knew god will not fail..and when these promises comes true...they will see and know how true our God is...

that not one thing has failed of all the good things that the Lord your God promised concerning you; all have come to pass for you, not one of them has failed. Joshua 23:14

Numbers 23:19 God is not man, that he should lie,
or a son of man, that he should change his mind.
Has he said, and will he not do it?
Or has he spoken, and will he not fulfill it?

Now God has blessed us according to His promise.And yes we confirmed it before march 31st,on march 15th..when I told my friends and family they say god is awesome and that their faith is renewed hearing this..May God be all the Glory for he has done great things for us.On November 11th 2007,I gave birth to a very beautiful and healthy baby girl Katherine Abigail Ravikumar.May God's name be continually glorified through us!!

Psalms 40:1,3,4

I waited patiently for the Lord;
he inclined to me and heard my cry.
He put a new song in my mouth,
a song of praise to our God.Many will see and fear,
and put their trust in the Lord.
Blessed is the man who makes
the Lord his trust.

A Meaningful Life

When we have something good,we so want to share with our loved ones.Words could not express how wonderfully my heavenly father loves me...I want all my friends and family to experience this love so amazing...this peace and security...this hope in the Almighty....So came this poem!

A Meaningful Life

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Have you ever been loved,

With the love so unconditional,

With the love that is really eternal?

Have you ever come across this greatest feeling,

The feeling of belonging,

To the Creator God and King?

Have you ever felt the hug of Jesus,

When the tides are high,

And the darkness is nigh?

Have you ever felt the soft touch on your brow,

To make you feel cared for,

From the one who bore thorns on His brow?

Have you ever felt Jesus smiling at you,

When you do a little good,

Then your heart leaping with Joy?

Have you ever felt Jesus wiping your tears,

In your darkest trial,

With the hand that bore the nail?

Have you ever felt like sleeping on His shoulders,

Of the greatest loving shepherd,

With the privilege of a precious child?

Have you ever got stuck with words,

To describe His love for you,

To tell How much He cares?

If not,You are living a life without meaning,

But no worries,Jesus is waiting!!!

The Greatest Treasure

My search to fill up the empty place in my heart..Only the greatest treasure can fill that place...So begins my search for the ultimate treasure !!!

The Greatest Treasure

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I was trying hard to find,

Till I find,there is no leisure,

It must be one of a kind,

The world's greatest treasure.

I set out a search,

In the pacific ocean,

It was pearls that I could reach

For which I had no passion.

So I set my eyes on the everest peak,

Precious carpet of snow everywhere,is all I could find,

This was not what I came to seek,

Something greater was on my mind.

Love,sharing and having made together lot of stories,

Must be friendship,was my notion,

But as a cargo ship of memories,

Leaving behind,we sail to another station.

So I searched the earth in and out,

I couldn't find an answer,

It made me anxious without doubt,

I couldn't even find it in a beautiful flower.

Gazing the moon and the stars twinkling in the sky,

I finally decided it must be truest love,

Which never ever passes by,

Oh ! All this time I had failed to look above!!

Yes! I have found what I was looking for,

The Only true greatest treasure,

Its The Precious Lord who has truly loved me so far,

I love Him with no measure.

He is the morning star,so bright,

He holds my hand and leads me every mile,

In His light,I will see light,

And I will do anything for His smile.

When the sun goes down....

Well..I tried to use some imagination in this one but what I am trying to say in this poem is absolutely true!!

When the sun goes down

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Everyday when the sun goes down..

I take a walk to the town;

I walk through the scented bed of roses,

Which is like the middle of sea in the story of moses.

There is a little girl in the garden,

She wears in her hair,beautiful satin ribbon;

We laugh and play in the garden,

Which makes me forget all my burdens.

In the town,there is a rodeo singer,

Whose voice I greatly admire;

He sings beautiful songs of comfort,

It surely does boost my spirit higher;

Then I go to the church near the river bank,

I kneel down with love to thank;

For the price with which I have been bought,

To He who rescues me without a second thought.

On my way home,I thought,

About the life I have got;

One day the roses would fade away,

The little girl may be no longer on my way.

The rodeo singer may lose his voice,

Or he may choose a living of better choice;

The mountain air may get stale,

Or the evening sky pale.

But the one love of my life,

Who willingly helps me in my strife,

Will always stay by my side,

Will always be my guide;

Anything and everything may pass,

But not the love that is revealed on the cross,

So I will live a life without any torment,

For God and His love for me is permanent!!!